Hi firstly this is my first post so hi to whoever is reading this..
Basically 6 months ago i had a really scary experience, that night my head felt like it was in overdrive (I'd never felt this way ever in my life). I started to hear voices, i don't really want to go into what they were saying but you get the idea.
Ever since that night, I've thought about what happened every single day, sometimes i still have bad episodes, and until now i've never spoken about it to anybody, I'm too afraid of what will happen, like being locked up in an institution or something... it sounds over the top but i really cannot help but worry about it.
The thing is, i don't know whether the voices are just my thoughts or what, please bare with me i know this isn't making much sence! I feel in my head that it IS me thinking all these thoughts, but just thinking alot at the same time, one way of putting it is that my head feel's crowded, and some nights when i'm in bed its unbearable. Does this sound like i have schizophrenia? I don't know whether that is the case or not, I've always had an over active imagination all my life, but i've never really noticed, now all of a sudden it feels as if I'm conscious all the time about what I'm thinking, if a bad thought enters my head then i quickly try and think of something positive. This does help but then it gets to the point where i'm going over the same thoughts.
Any responce would be appreciated! it feels like a weight has been lifted now i've got this out, i can't keep it to my self any longer. x
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