[I hope you won't feel like you're "outside looking in"....(that's an awful feeling that I know all too well) I think your idea is a great one for those that have good self-insight.

mandy

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Thanks for what you said Mandy,
I think I'll have to let up on this mission and accept what is, lots of encouragement but no takers! If one day I come accross someone else who would like to try this out, - it would only need a small group, then that would be great, 3 would be enought to start, - well it will either happen or it wont.

I have read some of your other posts, and I dont see you as you describe yourself, or, that isnt how I have expereinced your sharing. I have felt what you talk about is really on the mainline of the issues that apply to me too, so it has been helpful to read them.
Re your group expereinces: I remember one slaa group, I used to go home on my bike in tears on a saturday night, everone seemed to be friends with eachother, but not me. I carried on going for far too long, thinking, it should be alright here, its what I believe in after all!
Nowadays I am able to leave much more quickly if its no good for me. The guy I have been reading calls it 'Self in Exile', and that name fits so well for me. (I felt that a fellowhip with a focus on these issues, no-ne need get exiled)
Sometimes, also, I go into a situation of strangers with confidence, and then slowly slip out of sink with everyone and that feels worse than having gone in shy in the first place.

River.x