I say things spur of the moment and yesterday I said something to my therapist via text, or I asked a question. The answer I got made me feel like ****, and I wanted to cry. However, I think that maybe I needed that. Maybe I needed someone to push my buttons..get under my skin and hit me with reality. At the moment I felt bad, but now I feel like I'm okay. Knowing the stuff I say is "in my head" makes me feel better because if that's the case and it's all made up, I'm okay. I can cope better knowing it's not real. I love (and that is probably exaggerating) the fact that she hurt me. It makes it easier to distance myself.