I can tell when i'm starting to get manic but when it's at it's height i just think i am well at last and the good feelings will be permanent. They never are. I get beautiful, euphoric manias, like you. I'm not at all irritable. In fact my tolerance is epic. I can tell it's starting when i need less sleep, have boundless energy and start lots of new projects.

Inevitably i crash and have to clean up the mess i've made. I cancel everything. I'm high in the Spring and depressed the rest of the year. I sleep a lot, i'm tired and the future looks too dreary to bear.

It's like night and day.