I'm like that in the opposite direction. I felt I was doing okay, riding the wave just the way I liked it for hours, and I thought a little bit of normalcy came back to me. As it turned out, it was my wishful thinking, it wasn't like I was derailing or anything but ,, I was jumping up and down like a 5 y/o kid, and the music didn't help. You won't believe how many cuss words one can put into one verse of a rap song. Then I thought someone should come up with "cussing contest" or it could be named "cussing bee"! I gotta google it up later.

I don't have any calming music with me, most of them are ,,Eminem's hardcore rap, he listen to cello and get mellow while he eats his jellos! And I get to listen to his ,,artistic talent.

I'm still not sure whether or not I'd better stay away from the internetz, it's time consuming for sure, but we all know that unless you're doing hopelessly time wasting things, most of the time, you can do smart things on the net, don't know what the point of all of this, ,...

I got loads of great ideas that I could do by myself to help myself, yet ,,,,,,,,,,hmmm

Well, this is life, man. Are we walking on a path, the rail track that was laid for you and you try to stay on it, or are we
creating everything in the direction that you wanna go, doing both laying things down and some more like painting/drawing pictures that you wanna see, (I'm a lone guy so no passengers on my train, remember that pls...),,and my train, it is going full speed ahead, lots of steam coming out of it and it seems heavy, inertia, I need a fine control of it.

I just stop my non sense here.

(.........and it doesn't stop there. Life's neither a competition nor a comparison, at least for me, so I can enjoy the ride. )

@Supernova (lovely usename, You're supernova, Eminem sings about it. Very scientifically romantic name. good for you.)



Now that's cleared out. I remember that about you now. *phew*..........

I'm sorry to hear that you weren't doing good yesterday and two babies, plural, what?

(I'm glad that I'm a man, so I don't wake up one day and be 9 months pregnant. )

Hope you're doing better.