its time to hunker down for school. ive been having a lot of anxiety lately. i had a panic attack while skyping Door2015 the other day. i was so embarrassed. i took my meds immediately. i think im on the verge of crying from stress. ive been under a lot of stress the past month. from waiting for my financial aid to come in and worrying that it wasnt - to worrying about the potential vacation we were SUPPOSED to take my dad and i and booking flights and never did cuz i cost too much money. then my therapist said i was psychotic and i do have some psychosis going on.

im kinda at a tipping point.

the clinic says i have to go get bloodwork done within the next two months because i havent done it since 2013 in their records. so thats stressful.

i feel a mix of burnt out from life and stressed and anxious. its a horrible combination. i wish i was vivacious and energetic but i just feel like im 60 years old in terms of energy. i blame my meds so much. but i just started taking 15mg of haldol so idk.