I woke up anxious, so CBT for a while but it didnt work so I said "screw this! I dont deserve this" and took a tiny dose of ativan to help me along the morning without having to throw up every step.

So now that the anxiety is undercontrol I have checked and cuddled my goatie kids and horses, made it back to the house just in time for the rain to hit hard. Its only 9.30 am and I've finished work, horrid weather out. Thinking this is a self nurture day since I will be stuck inside.