I don't know if I feel wired today because I'm excited about things or from the lack of sleep I got last night. Could be both. All I know is, I like this but I hate it at the same time. I like being busy, but I hate having no time to myself. I want to cry out of misery, and laugh out of joy at the same time. I feel like I've been really sad for a while, but I was avoiding thinking about it. I didn't realize it until my first therapy appointment yesterday. I just all of a sudden wanted to cry, and it's been at the back of my mind ever since. I don't know why I'm so sad. Most things are good right now... I think I just feel lost.