((((Gabriel))))
My family joked around much to. Some of them tried to trigger me as well. I tried telling them that they were the reasons behimnd my SI. (only part of the reason) some where along the way I became the black sheep as well. The only thing that stopped my family was a ER doc telling them why I was there. I think that gave mom a reality check. She eventually got help for her self. I wish people could spend a day in our shoes.

You are not a ***** with no life. Everyone has a life worth living it just sometimes takes a while to figure out where our journeys are taking us.

Just know that there are people here to support you and listen to you and help you. I am so sorry about what you are dealing with.