I am worried my BF is overly concerned about me and my Dx. I think he means well, but lately I will go into these blind rages and blame him for everything, verbally and physically acting out. Then, if he isn't then there for me in the 'right' way.., i lose it as well. We are averaging 1-2 fights (major, crazy, manic fights on my part) per week! I know he is getting exhausted, he told me he consulted with a female co-worker after our last one (which of course set me off again!) The funny thing, when not fighting and not depressed b/c of prior fights, we are AWESOME and crazy for one another

I am beginning to think of involving him less overall, but more effectively and being smart about it. We recently talked about having 1 hour 1 day per week, where we work together on specific things - or anything we want to 'air' out together.

I am also going to change therapists- my current one pissed me off too many times. I just feel like I need to become more self-reliant, work on tweaking my meds, and focus on the lighter and more enjoyable aspects w/ my BF so that we can maintain a happy relationship. This isn't to say it will be all roses, but there are too many ups and downs. I know from experience (i was married for 7 years, now divorced) that involving and hanging around one another too much is no good. It just wears down the relationship.. grow too annoyed with eachother, start bad habits. We did not have any issues when we lived apart, when in earlier stages, and were crazy with chemistry. We still have a ton of chemistry- that is something I want to remain

I am going to focus on me, and also on forming a more healthy relationship.

So- curious of how many of you involve your significant other and how many dont and rely more on your 'team'...? Mine seems to get mad if i have too many expectations, or put too many demands on him. I am a big girl- yes with a dx or two, but now my family is involved, and i can take the pressure OFF of him solely.