Hi there,
I'm worried about you! Please tell the pdoc what's up. If you don't tell 'em, they can't help you. You told us and we're not freaking out. Your pdoc has heard everything anyway. He/she won't freak out either. They will work with you to come up with a plan to keep you safe.

It doesn't sound as if you're quite ready to return to work. Perhaps ask the pdoc for a note giving you more time, to give to your employer. You can't get fired for being sick! We all get sick...

Please don't apologize for sharing your feelings. That is what we do here!

Do take care and please let us know how you're doing. We care!
Best,
Okie