Like I said, I'm just a regular guy. I'm no expert in any of this. So take this for what it is, just my advice. What your saying here would really concern me. Most everyone on this site seems to be here because they're going through a situation that involves a tough decision that would directly affect a person we love or loved at one time. But there are times when we need to make a decision not only for that persons well being, but for our own as well. I'm in a situation like that. And I'm really struggling with it. It's hard. What I'm getting at is, make sure that whatever you do, please take into account both your husbands well being and your own. Do what you can for him. Help him and aid him in any way you can. But, don't cross the line of putting yourself in danger just because it's what you think is best for him. Because chances are it's not what's best for him. Sometimes what's best isn't what we like. It's often what we don't like. But that doesn't change the fact that it's what's best.

Be safe! Know there are folks out there that are genuinely concerned for you, and don't hesitate to reach out for help. I truly hope you find some peace from this sooner rather than later.