so just updating sort of.. it's been a month. I met this one person I mentioned in my first post. Told him I'm on disability. I'm glad I haven't mentioned mental health though. I really have a hard time communicating with him, or either that he isn't good at it (just my thoughts, he doesn't seem to know how to)... although in my depression I'm not great at talking either. But I've felt way more comfortable with other dates, so something's different, and it seems he may have a drinking problem.
The problem with living in such a small town is people talk, and I'm not willing to purposely tell people about everything right away. I have before, and in one case, it created a friendship, another it was used as an excuse.

Anyhow, this whole online dating thing seems very difficult, and many act interested and even plan to meet and then stop talking. So I'm just doing this to get out and get myself a bit more social. I see nothing wrong with that. I've put on there that I'm looking for friends for now. So, it's another way to pass time and hopefully make some friendships.

Making any kind of big deal about it just stresses me out, so I've decided to just have fun and not worry about what anyone thinks of me. Thanks for anyone who has or is listening and helped me.