Thanks for these alternatives solution. What worked the most for me is sport, this year I did running every day the more I could, each time increasing the distance, but then I started to hurt myself. I have some motivation but nothing seems to work.

The most interesting alternative I see is electroshock, but I don't know how could I do that. I don't see any psychiatrist at the moment, I don't know who I can talk to for that.

"Your psychiatrist has ruled out ECT, but is TMS/rTMS available in your health care system? Do you currently have access to both a psychiatrist and a psychologist/therapist?"

I don't see any psychiatrist at the moment, it was my medic who was giving me antidepressants, and other drugs. The psychiatrist I saw didn't help me, he basically just gave me the drugs I asked for. I already tried to talk to therapist several times but I had nothing to say to him.