Thanks for the reply,

I think it could be bipolar also, there are times when im in a good mood, i forget about the schizophrenia thing and i feel better again, then the thought of it will pop into my head and i'll hit rock bottom again and feel suicidle etc over it, I'm not going to go do something like that, but it does help me feel better for a while ironically.

I should go see a doctor, i think i've been trying to kid myself by telling myself im not going mad, there was a short period afew months back when i felt better if i drank alcohol every night, but that just makes things ten times worse the next day so i dont touch the stuff anymore.

xx