Dear G, your holidays are almost over, and it's 5 days until I see you next, and I am getting so anxious because I have to tell you about the romantic aspect of my transference to you. I still can hardly eat, my appetite has been barely there since I started writing this letter to you, planning what I'm going to say. I'm so worried about how you might respond or not respond. I'm so scared that you will be disgusted by me and not want to have anything to do with me anymore. I am afraid that you might not want to hug me anymore. If you reject me because of these feelings for you that I wish I didn't have, I think it would hurt so much that I would want to kill myself.