Dear t: I am really stressing over this house-buying stuff and work right now. But you know what, I guess I oughta be proud of myself for one thing anyway. I'm reaching out to friends and talking to hubby and I haven't bothered you about it. Last week when I saw you it wasn't getting to me this bad yet, but since then it's like every damn day something else is a problem with getting the loan and at work it's been crazy-busy and people have been more demanding and mean than usual so I'm an emotional puddle before I even get home, then have to deal with the loan crap. If I make it to next thursday w/out bothering you, well damn what do I need you for? Actually I know the answer to that question. I've gotten far enough to have learned how to rely on other people for help when I wig out, but would really truly honestly love to get to a place where I don't wig out in the first place.....