im feeling apathetic for years now and im losing my friends with it. i don't know what to do, im sitting here, isolating myself from the world, and basically have no motivation to achieve anything. and i don't want that to happen to me. but i don't know why i should either. somehow it seems like, i don't have any addition to the world. neither if i "achieve stuff" there are so many people, and they can live without one more.