I am in great respect of you for seeing this and wanting to get help. As long as you see it and want help, I do feel you will recover. I had a friend who was a pathalogical liar. She did not know she was lying. Or I have been told she didnt. Compassion kept me from pointing it out to her. I have such great respect for anyone who sees this as an issue and works on the roots etc. Wishing you best.