my name is anna and i would like to explain something.
my friend smilesandcries will help me explain it better.
i have difficulty explaining things for people to understand so my friend smilesandcries is going to help me explain.

i usually enjoy my brain and it's difference, however lately it has made me sad because i wish to drive a car. people who do not have the disorder i do are allowed to drive cars, but i am not allowed to ever drive a car. i don't think this is fair. sometimes my brain gets locked and does things differently, even though i don't intend to do things "the wrong way".

this is different when i do mathematics.
i am very good at mathematics. math is consistent.
sometimes my words don't come as simple to me as mathematics. sometimes when i try to form sentences they come out wrong even though i don't intend for them to come out that way, i get confused. my mouth doesn't match what my thoughts are. it never relays the message i am thinking.

i don't count my words as truth when they come out wrong, i know what i am thinking and how i truly feel, it just comes out wrong.

i love all of my friends at psychcentral. lots of my friends here are always talking about finding the truth. truth is the best thing next to knowledge. the truth is hard to understand, but you always become happy when you find out the truth. i don't have the capabilities to explain the truth, sometimes i wish i could escape my brain, i feel trapped. i don't have the same capabilities as "regular" people. however knowing the truth inside me is all i need.