thank you for replying RiverX.
Yes, this relates to me VERY much: </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
In my fam.of origing, my mother was shameless, probably narcissistic, everthing and everyone was only as good as they met her values, and she had no conscience or awareness of how she treated others.
I became shame based. Paralysed or undermined by shame for much of my life. Now I see it as - I took on her shame that she didnt own. I was so invaded by her and wanted to dissociate myself from her behaviour, so I went to the opposite extreme, I acted 'underentitled' ..

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> ..... I told myself while growing up, "I'm never going to be like HER"...... looks like I accomplished that.

I feel so much pain and bad feelings when someone else is abused or subjected to injustice-- so much so that, my feelings can get in the way of my daily life--- maybe that's the PTSD reacting???... I don't know.....

Hope your computer is better now-- mine is out of commission still so I only have a limited time to be here...... which is difficult for me-- it usually takes me much time-- thinking, when reading posts and to reply..... but *sigh*.... my time is short for now.......

thank you,
mandy