im a basically "the world sucks" sort of person so i dont get involved. i live in my own little bubble. ive got the whole i dont exist in the world thing down pat and pretty much could go on existing that way and be fine with it but.....do i really want to live that way??????

my motivation for change sways from about 3-5 based on how bad my agoraphobia/anxiety is but my motivation for improved mental health is much higher and part of that is a support system which means friends. so i work on getting out and doing something once a week. if i make it, i make it, if i dont, i dont, but i make an honest attempt to do so. i have two friends i made on here that i message with via phone at least three times a week having "real" conversations so i am not just completely isolated constantly.

as for acheiving anything. i had to build my selfesteem to have the motivation for that to become important. that took a few years of really becoming conscious of my thoughts and beliefs of how i put myself down. i had to focus on my strenghts and begin acknowledging and believing in them, working from that perspective and doing things i enjoyed and make me feel good and then i finally felt like i was contributing to the world. you dont have to move mountains. just doing something to put a smile on someones face is enough. volunteering is a good way to do this. the more you do it, the better you feel.