If you are dealing with true clinical depression, and it sure does sound to me like you are, then I recommend that you get diagnosed by a doctor. You can then discuss treatment options with the doctor, like some medication (doesn't have to be permanent) and the possibility of therapy, which might be a great help. Your relationshio problems can definitely trigger bouts of epression, but I think you are wrong, if you believe that you have depression because your boyfriend caused it. A trigger is not a root cause.
You may very well have chronically recurring depression. That is something that tends to be a permanent disorder that a person has to learn to manage, just like a diabetic has to learn to manage up and down blood sugar levels. Waiting for your boyfriend to "fix" you is probably not going to be a successful strategy. Also, he will have more respect for you, if he sees that you are taking charge of yourself and looking into developing a system to try and manage your depression.
He may or may not be a suitable partner for you. I really don't know. However, I think you are going to have on-going problems with depression, no matter who you have for a boyfriend. Look into treatment and start reading anything you can find about living with depression.
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