Dear T,
I've been angry and distressed lately. I feel I owe you some apology in the same place where I poured all my resentment and abandonment issues.
I have learned (here also..) that you might change your mind at any time and tell me our work together is over. But it hasn't happened so far, so I say sorry for being so stubborn.
I realized it yesterday when I asked you if there is already a referral for me and you wrote me back saying that as you told me many times, you are not planning to pass me to anyone else unless it is what I want and, if I only wanted, we could see each other and decide how to do in the meantime.
Even though I don't, people do build families and it's ok and instead of being so childish I should be grateful that you are coming back instead of sending me to another professional.
A few persons have just exacerbated my abandonment issues and I panicked adding you to the group of people who leave. It's a rough year and I know I'm a difficult client at times but you sticked. I appreciate you going to supervision instead of getting rid of me. I also appreciate your humanness when I was giving you a hard time. And I appreciate your spontaneous hugs when you didn't know what to say and still, your excellent boundaries. Probably I don't need any particular skill from a T anymore but I just need to soothe the pain of abandonment. I'm always scared of relapsing because "if I don't progress (fast) enough you'll be fed up". I hope you put up with me and stay as long as it is needed and that we will end our work together with me feeling stronger and confident. I've been running my whole life, I hope you allow me to be slower and find my own pace to see you won't have left in the meantime like everyone else.
I'm curious about what you have in mind for your leave and am still worried until I talk to you about it all, but I promise I will listen.