Hello lovely people,
I was just wondering if anyone else suffers from a similar phobia as I do.
Ever since I was a child, the sound of a firecracker or any loud bang made me jump, tear up and fear for my life. I have seriously considered moving away from my part of the city to a quieter area because the kids in my neighbourhood throw firecrackers at any occasion.
I feel completely paralyzed whenever it happens. I am already so scared of new year's eve and the time around December because I know it is going to be bad again. Once I even had kids behind me who lighted a firecracker in a narrow train station that I was in and I had a nervous breakdown and could not get myself together for the rest of the day. So far I don't know anyone with a similar problem, and my friends just think that I am "afraid", but that's not it. I cannot control what's happening and it is a lot more physical than just being afraid of something but knowing that nothing is going to happen.
I would be so happy to know if there are people out there who feel the same and to read about how they cope with this!