Okay, so my boyfriend went away for two weeks and i was really really sad for the first week and a half... then i started making the website for our 6 month anniversery, but for some reason, making it made me not sad anymore... and it was okay that he was away. When i was sad when he was away, i was kinda dependant on him emotionally... but in that two weeks i lost that emotional dependance, but i am extremely scared that losing the dependance will lead to losing my interest. Because in the past i have had an enormously difficult time keeping myself from shutting off on relationships, and for the first time in my life i've gotten past that... as of yet at least... and i am really scared that the decline that i am experiencing won't stop... and that i will shut off again. I would rather much be dependant again, and i want that dependancy back... because i know there isn't any chance of me getting hurt by him... because he's kinda dependant on me too, (hes had problems with that in the past also... but not like mine... he's just gotten hurt by becoming dependant too fast.) I am just scared to death of shutting off... and hurting him. Any advice?
~Julie... uhh i mean
ºPhae