Thanx Raceka & Perna for your answers!

Raceka, I actually can't cry in front of her, because she has never seen me crying & so it would be kind of too new for me to show myself that vulnerable in front of her...but I'd like to be able to do it, & there were times when I felt like it but simply couldn't, had to keep up the appearances..even though she encouraged me to let it go..anyway So I think you're very brave raceka to be able to do so...
Perna, you seem to be speaking of transference as a past thing, so maybe you know what happens next? I'm so afraid that she's going to leave me, & I feel that this is not an adult kind of feeling but can't help feeling it/ her this way... I'm a bit embarrassed to say so but it's as if I wanted to be her child...& her only child... From what I've read in some of the threads, this can hurt so much, is it worth going on with therapy? Or maybe it's still time to stop...Can anything good come out of this whole transference stuff? Could anyone actually relate how going through transference could be helpful in any way?cause I'm really wondering...
Thanx for your advices..