When you look at me what do you see?

When you speake to me what do you hear?

I would love to know what it is about me that makes people think I have it all together? I need to know why people think it is ok to assume that because I drive a decent car, I have a full time job and Im married that I MUST BE HAPPY.

I wish people read a book before they decided based on the cover what the contents were. I truly wish people understood me and didnt just assume.

I long for the pain to stop. The panic attacks, depression, suicidal thoughts, the voices in my head, it all needs to end before I do.