no one here is going to give up on you. we're going to continue insisting that you get help asap and support you........you're in real danger of permanently injuring yourself. an infection (such as staph) can get ugly really fast and you could end up in a life threatening situation.

i don't know what you are using to SI but it has bacteria on it. trust me, it has germs on it. where those germs stick, could be the deciding factor on whether or not you get an infection. if you've got the least teensy abrasion, voila, an opening for the germs. when it gets into your bloodstream, you're up the creek without a paddle. staph can turn into something that can't be killed off with antibiotics........

please go to a primary care doctor and have a pelvic exam. going back to a hospital may save your life. xoxox pat