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Originally Posted by MarlboroChick
No voices yet, haha. I dont understand why she beats the **** out of me, and then comes back apologizing and taking care of me. Maybe since youve been there you could explain it to me a little...? When someone pisses me off and I beat them up, I sure dont go back and help them afterwards.
She regularly slips me my prescribed meds because i wont take some of them (haha), and sometimes sedatives. Theres only been a few times I got really sick from it, unless it was spoiled food.
I know she doesnt like me, she puts up with me because im her daughter and ****, but i dont know if she hates me enough to try and kill me. I was wondering if she'd try to make me sick because itd give her more control, which i know shed like.
Psychiatrist trusts my mom waaay more then me...hes evaluating me for schizophrenia.
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I can explain the hitting apologizing. A huge pet peeve I had as a child aunt around toddler nieces/nephews saying question "what were you attempting."
Tots hand hits, adult voice. "Say sorry." Tot says "sorry" Adults. "Oh...good girl." Learned behavior negative hitting acceptable, "even" "say sorry sorry" words and "positive words back." Heat of moment then calm and apologize.
Problem many never learned saying sorry without hearing someone tell "say sorry."
The tot never meant hitting. The tot meant comfort soft caressing. Problem never learned "non-baby position" soft caressing. Baby learned from raised height feet wrapped around waist arms holding check to check position so eye sight line to ground floor is about 5 feet longer than baby's actual "arm" reach and 3 feet longer than foot bottoms.
Tot was imitating seeing someone else's actions attempting to learn how fingers feel not check to check and body pressed against "object."