Col/Vanilla Cake, thank you so much for your comment. I have only a handful of people that understand me and what I am going through. Though they seemed to have left me in the wind, that is why I came here. I am exploring myself, but I am exploring another ave of how I am as well. We are all complex beings and I am bi, however I am exploring another relationship that is considered taboo as well.
I did know about cyclist, swimmers do the same, and I am both. I just haven't completely done it yet, I would really like to do laser removal, but can't afford it now. Thank you for brightening my day, have a great one.