Rora, it is difficult, I can attest to that. I was with my last therapist for five years. She was beautiful, smart and caring. When I first started to see her we set up boundaries and talked about things we needed to stay away from to keep our relationship professional. Unfortunately there have been many cases of therapist doing the boundary crossing or letting it happen. My suggestion is be up front and honest with her, worst thing she'll be embarrassed and best case scenario it makes your therapy go to a level of communication that you never had. And that would increase the help that you were seeking in the first place, honesty is key to trust and is always the best policy. Good day.