And like some of the other older posters, likewise, I'd hang out with you, except you might not want to, me being probably twice your age! Both of you (DIMF and Stb Guy) make some very interesting posts. Please read and think about the above too. It says a lot. And TBH even if as a woman, you're looking for a relationship, you're more interested in stuff like would you make a good dad, can you fix things, do you make me laugh, are you kind, can you earn a living, will you look after me if I'm sick - or things about who you are rather than what you look like or what you do for a living. It's long term. Can you see eachother for years and not fall out or get bored or treat me bad. Women are afraid of bad experiences too. And being twice your age, I know you'll be OK. It's hard now, but you have plenty of time. And your hearts are in the right place.