Checking in. I'm ok. Bit of stress this morning but Nr5 managed to solve the problem and also calm my daughter. One of the children got hold of my smokes last night. I generally hide them because there are days when I wake up and things have been moved around. Because there's no all-night store close to me, I made sure I hid them well. But somebody was looking. I woke up this morning with the cigarette pack on the bedside table next to my water. With only one cigarette in it. Immediately I started looking inside for the culprit when a thought popped in - look in your hand- my left hand, I'm right handed. Anyway there was the second one.

Because I have not met everybody yet, I don't know who the voice belonged to, but she must know the child if she saw what he did. And I'm pretty sure it's a boy, you just get that male vibe coming from him.

My alters decided not to name themselves because by the time we all understood our problem we also understood we were part of a whole. Thus the numbers, but this little boy is an exception. It seems he wants a name even if he only comes out when the main outside alters are asleep. Wasp is the word that keeps popping into my head. So I think he wants to be called wasp. Why? I don't know.