I just got out of the hospital Friday for med changes that couldn't be done outpatient and suicidal thoughts with a plan but not intent. That started improving as soon as I was admitted because I was safe and being taken care of so that I'd stay safe. By Friday I was still very depressed but not suicidal and since I didn't really want to spend a weekend doing nothing IP the dr and I agreed I could go home if I would go back in if anything changed. So far it hasn't and my therapist wasn't worried about me today. 10 days ago he would have sent me in against my will if he could have.

The hospital really helped me. I know it is scary sounding but it's not that bad and it just feels safe and for me that helped so much. That and being able to socialize with people who knew how I felt. I actually had fun at times despite the severe depression. I learned some new coping skills and also the root of my problem, which is a year and a half of dealing with things that are isolating and sad and very little fun or relaxation time in those months. I think I laughed more last Tuesday than I had laughed in months, just playing a stupid game while waiting for supper.

I would go and try it and see if it helps. It can't feel much worse, right?