Hi:

My dad killed himself in May, the first days of May. I've been reading a little about this and even when I have problems trying to accept and understand all of it, I am starting to realize everything has changed and my whole life probably will never be the same.
I still don't feel like going into details, but there are a lot of additional issues and complications around his death, it's not only losing him but having to deal with a big bunch of burocratic, legal and very heavy economical burdens that fall over me as I'm the responsible one now. I really haven't had the chance to sit down for a moment and cry my father's lost ... and I wonder when will I be able to do it.
I try to keep going because I feel if I analyze it too much at this present moment, I just will fall down and won't be able to continue doing all the things I have to do.
Maybe this resolution is not the healthiest, but I just don't know how to go through all this without numbing myself, and what feels worse is that I am not sure how long will this take.
Please, I need some advice. How can I deal with all this? I feel overwhelmed and tired all time. Thanks.