i tried to wait til 9 to take my night meds but i am so tired i had to take them now. i see T tomorrow morning. im always thinking my T is dead i think its a paranoia thing. sometimes i can brush it off and be like nahhhhhhhhh hes not dead. but sometimes i get really caught up in it. i do the same with my mom. and i have done it before with one of my friends. i think im so afraid of people dying that i am paranoid about it. but its always like.... what if this time... they are dead??? ummm anyway...

zzz