(((((((((((((((((christina)))))))))))))))))))))))))
yeah!!! on 153!!! i'm doing terrible myself ~ i know how bad the urges can be!! hang in there!!!
i say go ahead and scream!!!!!! scream into a pillow!!!!! i double dog dare you!!!!!
you can break something too!!! smash a plate on the floor....dare ya to do that too!!!
it's OK for you to feel mad!!

if you're feeling the mad that means you're not hiding behind the SI!! you're feeling instead! that's awesome!!
i am sorry to hear therapy didn't help....but hang in there....maybe next time will be better!