We had a perfect love story relationship until my dypareunia and depression got in the way. I had been a perfectly happy person until just over a year ago and I can't figure out what snapped inside me that changed me so drastically. I had the normal everyday stresses with college and friends and other normal issues. But everything about our relationship was fine. We got engaged we were stoked and so happy. But I think stress with school and questioning what I really wanted to do with my life started to get me down and push him away because I wasn't the happy giddy girl I'd been for the past year and our whole life (we went to schook together K-12). Then weight gain happened and I slowly started to really hate who I was, inside and out. After that there was a painful night and the dypareunia came into play. I've been to a doctor and have been trying to sort it out but it's taken a really long time and it affected my sex drive a lot. That along with the weight gain made me not want to be touched or even looked at, so needless to say still no sex drive. All This only depressed me more. It started to seem like everything in my life was falling apart little by little. Then we moved halfway across the country and I expected this to have a huge impact on my problems. Maybe I just wanted a beach to go to once in a while to forget momentarily and to have a little distance from my family, maybe I was just trying to run away from my problems, but it hasn't worked. I'm stressed about school again, money, and the relationship hasn't got better. We don't sceram or abuse or anything of the sort, but we're not in that puppy love anymore and sometimes it feels as though we're roommates more often than an engaged couple. We've created a list of things to work on and it only worked for about a week. Then came another day where he texts me everything that is wrong and then acts normal when he gets home. I know that a lot of it is due to my problems and my self esteem and that only I can fix these problems. Believe me I have asked him for help and we've had discussons about the things we both need to fix. But it never seems to go anywhere. I don't know what else to do. We do love each other there is no doubt about it, and neither of us want this to end. We want to be happy again. We want a life together forever. I am looking for tips, pick me ups, advise from people who have overcome similar problems. I've run out of ideas and I'm running out of will. I just need help.