well, its weird coz these past days seems like turning me into a ******. sometimes i rant about things or someone, then fight, and make everything worse. i dont remember why i did and what caused me doing that and now i'm feeling guilty of all the things that i've done. but sometimes i feel really excited and happy doing that and i want to bash more people. and now i'm making apologies and then break them again and again. i'm confused. i always talk and scold myself how stupid i am doing that. fdwefnpoefjioeawjfipongiwrgundfaisf... sorry about that. i wanna stop but i cant. i've been a good friend all these years and i think i'm now hated by people. wtf!