Dear MC,
I know you think H and I are doing much better--and we are. But that doesn't mean I don't still need you. I suspect you realize that the main reason H and I still see you weekly isn't so much for us (H&I) but for me--because of what I get from you. H is OK with that--he's told me multiple times. I know that maybe technically I'm breaking the rules in some way if I'm using our marriage counseling mostly to help myself (though helping myself ultimately helps our marriage). If I could just switch to you as my individual T, I'd do it in a heartbeat (though would feel bad for leaving my T). But I'm not sure if you'd allow that or not.

So for now, can we just keep pretending that it's mostly marriage counseling, when really it's probably like 85% me and 15% marriage? And even if sometimes we spend 15 minutes talking about fantasy football, like we did today? Because I value any time I spend with you. Just being around you and looking into your deep brown eyes--especially when you take your glasses off for a while, like you did today--makes me feel more understood as a person and less alone in the world. I don't want that to go away...