Thank you all very much for your support. I saw my doc yesterday and it was a good visit. The only thing he really said was to certainly text him if I felt myself (or if my family noticed) becoming unwell. He did tell me to use the Klonapin for sleep as needed. He said I should try .5 MG but that probably wouldn't work and it would probably take more. He also wanted to see me in 4 weeks. I have been seeing him every 2 weeks for some time (not only because I wasn't well but also because he was helping me financially by saving me 2 visits a month from my pricey therapist). He really noticed I am doing well too.

My sister asked me how I was and when I said well, she said "good, because you really seem like 'Sarah' again." Then yesterday, my husband said "you've really been doing well lately." He was referring to the housework but still, these were very nice compliments. Having others notice helps validate my feelings. Sorry if I am boasting. I don't mean to boast. I have believed I would never see "me" again at all and it seems that is what has happened, no matter how long. I keep asking myself, "am I really well now? Was I really unwell then? Or, was I just lasy and now I'm getting over it? Is it all in my head?" I know that is nonsense and I try to call it as such.