Thank you so much rainyday107 and avlady for you help. I highly appreciate that. Also thank you for enlightening me about myself a bit but that is a big help for me. I love being very intuitive but i really hate the side effect of this (It is like i'm suffering). My mind is absolutely messy and thoughts are popping out quickly. I can't focus on what I was doing. I think of ending my suffering sometime but I can't just do it, that is not the solution for everything. A while ago, I felt like my head and chest would explode, I felt so heavy and cried, yeah I cried like a child, asking someone some help while crying. I hope there's nothing wrong with me and I'm sorry to post my feelings here, I can't just tell to anyone even friends and parents. Any incoming replies will be appreciated. Thank you!