Hi 20oney

I'm sorry that you are in such a difficult depression. But that you have a psychologist you like and find her helpful is very encouraging. Perhaps writing out how you feel and how bad things were on the computer and printing it out and handing it to her would work best for you.
Trying to hide or get rid of painful feelings. Research has revealed simply doesn't work because it makes them come back worse and stronger. What I do with these feelings of anxiety and depression is to say to myself, I am experiencing them and then I watch them as they go through my mind and disappear, and I keep doing this till they stop which they always to eventually and at the same time getting on with the business of the day. This is acceptance and commitment therapy a form of mindfulness and you could ask your psychologist about this because for me it has been a real lifesaver enabling me to get depression. Under control. Self-help literature on this should be available in the public library health section or purchasable from Amazon. There is also a book called self compassionate mindfulness, written by professor Kristin Neff. This is very good.

Many fellow sufferers have found a medication unhelpful. What they then do is go back to the Dr. and try another one until the one that works best for them is identified.
I was wondering whether depression support groups is something you would find helpful. If so, there is Nami the organization for the mentally ill who run peer to peer support groups and you can Google them phone them and find out what they have available in your area. There is also WRAP which is the wellness recovery action plan and you can Google that and most states run it. It enables everyone to formulate their own plan for keeping well.

Giving up is not the best thing to do recovery demands perseverance and determination. You have that because you keep going despite the obstacles. When things are not working. It is useful to ask yourself why so that you can make the appropriate adjustments. I really hope and pray everything gets better for you. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis