You all have really helpful inputs I really appreciate all the replies to help me

I'm in my mid-twenties and my boyfriend is 10 years older than me. I don't think it's necessarily a maturity thing. I think he doesn't think about everything like I do though. And as men often say, they don't read minds. Sometimes I think he just doesn't realize what I'm going through or what I'm feeling. And I used to explain, but I get exhausted of explaining.

I do agree that it's probably too much for him. I don't think it's easy. I think maybe where I'm wrong is when I've thought he owes me because he hurt me. And to some degree it applies. I think when you do something wrong to someone you make efforts to make up for it. But because the scope is so much bigger than a simple short term mistake in our case, it can't apply the same way maybe because of course he gets tired of having to "pay for his mistakes".

As far as taking a break, it's true that it may be the best thing to do right now, so we can both reflect on what we want... It's scary though. Because of the recent events and the way we have already grown apart some, there is a big chance that at this point, we could end up both feeling happier without the other. that would make me really sad.

@rcat: I'm glad you had your boyfriend with you when you were going through your severe bout of depression.
I think the difference with mine is that he has told me many times that he doesn't understand depression, and he has just started reading about it a bit last week after I sent him articles for him to read.
I think it freaks him out a bit but at the same time I'm hoping it helps him not take too many things personally. Even though it's hard of course.

I think you guys have all given me a lot of things to think about...