All my life coping with anxiety. So many psychologists that I can't remember the number.
I'm coming back to school and I would like to know why I find to do a normal activity, an activity that "normal" people do in an easier way, seems to me like jumping with a parachute.
After so many years of dealing with depressions, anxiety and avoidant behaviours. I would like to hear from a person this "I understand you" and not " I also have anxiety".
It seems that anxiety is now fashionable. But mine affects my daily life.
If a person would tell me "I feel bad, I've got a terrible headache", never came to my mind telling this person " Oh, I also have sometimes headaches". I would focuss on the person who is talking to me.
And forget about my issues for a moment.
I don't blame them. It's hard to understand psychological issues from the outside. They can't be measured.
I still remember how when I was talking to a coworker about my depression, she told me: I'm sure I won't be never affected for that.
I told her: I hope you won't.
I don't know why I'm writing this. I think I needed to put this out bc I'm nervous as hell. I know that I'm a person like any other and that I have my positive points but at these moments I feel like a failure.
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Social Anxiety and Depression. Cluster C traits.
Trying to improve my English. My apologies for errors and mistakes in advance.
Mankind is complex: Make deserts blossom and lakes die. ( GIL SCOTT-HERSON)
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