i just called my boss to tell her i do need the rest of the week off....i told her that i was meeting with a psychologist thursday and i would let her know by friday if i'd need more time and if i'd need to take short-term disability....she confirmed with me that i would call her friday and let her know if i needed the next week off....AND then she said i just need you to understand we can't hold that position for an extended period of time....SO WHY DID SHE BRING UP SHORT TERM DISABILITY TO ME YESTERDAY!!!!!! what is she trying to say that if i opt to take short term dis that i'll lose my job?

on top of that early this morning when (since i didn't sleep at all) i hurt myself ...i'd been trying to take it easy on myself down there but i was so tired and worried over work that i pushed more....then i did more in the shower to hurt myself there... <font color="red">i want to go to the doctor this morning for a pelvic exam but i'm scared!!!!!!!!! </font>

i'm so unhappy right now!!