I don't know really. I just take it one day at a time. I have a camp 200 miles away up in the woods with no electricity. I have a friend up there - Annette who I have known for a couple of years. Sometimes when I am up there, Annette visits, other times I like to be alone there or she may come up later in the weekend or not all all. Especially in the cold weather because I may not like to be cooped up inside a small 300 square foot area with her for very long. Anette seems to like me alot and I don't try to encourage her to visit me, but she likes to. I find her more physically attractive but she talks alot and sometimes seems moody and sometimes has gotten angry at me and yelled at me. I can't picture myself living with her if I ever wanted to, though we are friends. I do sometime fool around with her a little, but it can make me feel guilty. I sometimes feel like if I abstain from all sexual activity, then I will eventually get stress headaches which used to happen to me many years ago.

I would also say I have doubts about meeting a certain type of dream girl or having any expectations that I could find a deep relationship without numerous conflicts and troubles.

I tend to feel I am not an ideal ladies man because I have too many diverse interests and so on at least for long periods of time in my life