I have been there many times in the past, & the now that I am living is the reason that I should not have died when I wanted to.

I didn't know what the future held for me.....it is something that we don't have the knowledge. If I had known that my life would have been what it is today, I would never have wanted it to end.

If you read some of my posts about my new life here in Kentucky & all the beauty I am living around & all the wonderful people that are now part of my life, it can help you understand what I am talking about.

I feel like I am living in heaven on earth. Sure, there are little annoying things that come up in life....it isn't perfect, but this is as close to perfect as anyone could get......& it isn't anything that I could have even have imagined a few years ago when I wanted my life to end.......or more like when I tried many times to end my life (almost successful several times).

It was strange because I was just thinking about this the other day.....when I stood on my deck, overlooking my woods.....feeling so blessed with everything that is in my life now.......I would have missed all this beauty & peacefulness in my life if it had gone the way I wanted it to a few years ago.

This is why we should not die when we want to.......we should die when it happens naturally.....when the time is right.........not when we THINK is the right time.

Step back & take a breath......I know people told me the same thing & at the time, I didn't want to listen & I wouldn't listen to what anyone had to say......but it really is the truth from first hand experience.

Please do listen....no matter how hard it is,
Debbie