I was told that I have "mixed feelings" bipolar which means that I will feel depressed and up at the same time sort of. The doc said it was a living hell. He is right. And that I have had it all my life. That's why I self-medicated for so many years. I kept getting diagnosed for over 10 years as having chronic depression and generalized anxiety disorder but finally in December 2006 found a competant psychiatrist ( I hate shrinks and I told him so) but he impressed me, put me on Lamactil and my life has completely turned around. I almost feel "normal" LOL